I'm left speechless.

Sometimes it's hard for me to believe there's something bigger than the sky.
Something that lasts longer than the air I breathe.
Something more amazing than the stars I've always looked up to.

I always wonder how long You waited in heaven until You decided to create everything. But then I remember how there's no such thing as time where You come from. In heaven, a day is like a thousand years and a thousand years is like a day. You are more than what I will ever be able to understand, and yet I still try to understand. I have moments of confusion when I try to comprehend how great You are. I sit here and try to put a picture in my head of what you might be. But I end up with a blank mind because You are too big for my thoughts. I struggle with the fact that You are always with me. It's not that I don't believe it, it just seems too good to be true. All I want is for my faith to be strong and powerful, so that I can feel that you are always with me.


I can't get over how big You are
And for me to always be on Your mind?
I'm sloppy, sinful, and just a big mess
But with Your love and mercy I am no longer blind.

There are no words to explain who You really are
You can place the blazing sun on the horizon of the sea.
You send me flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning
I guess I'm not used to having someone so crazy about me.

Dear God,

I want you to be inside me. I want every breath I take to come from you. When people see me, I want them to see glimpses of you shining through. Here on earth, life gets really tough but I know that you will never give me anything that we can't handle together. With all of the adventures you are constantly blessing me with, good or bad, I become more humble and thankful everyday. I want to know You, God. I realize that I won't be able to understand everything You do, because if I could, then what's stopping me from being God? That is why You are worthy of all my praise! Nobody will ever figure You out. I pray that I can accept the things that aren't meant for me to understand. Sometimes I wish you could make a special trip down here just to let me know how I'm doing. Am I serving enough? Am I loving enough? What do I need to work on? I need to do all the things that will get me into Your kingdom, and I need to do them with all my heart. When I serve the poor, I want to do it in secret, because You know what I've done and that's all that matters. I don't want to put on a show for the people. If I do, I get no reward from You. I want to do what is right to You, even if it's wrong here on earth. I want to be different. I don't want to be one of those cliche Christians that act like they're perfect and better than everyone else because they know who You are. I want people to know I mess up, and then I want them to see that I am broken. I am sweetly broken, and wholly surrendered to You. I don't want to judge, God. All the people are your children, and You love them even if they don't love You. I want to be like that. Continue to mold me into you perfect vision. Continue to hold me even when I'm lost. Continue to love me even when I abandon You. I love You, but You love me more. I think about You, but You think about me more. You make me smile with every sunrise. And with every sunset I'm more thankful than in the morning. Your love is like the sun; always shining, and never changing. God, teach me to walk like Jesus, I'm begging You.

Love, Your Child.