Confidently Unsure

Am I not loyal? Am I not good? Am I not pure?
Do I even hold the lamp that you offer to give light?
I need to be reassured.
Am I doing anything right?
I need feedback, why don't I hear from you?
I feel like I'm pulling all the weight, but I know that's not true.
You test those who do right.
But am I even worthy of a test?
Am I even pleasing in your sight?
God, my mind needs rest.
I'm constantly at battle,
And I can finally see the shore.
But I cannot find the paddle as I hear the waves roar.
Breathe, and send the wind.
Guide me to land.
Give me the faith to know
That simply believing is all you demand.

Little Joseph...

It has to be dark before the sun can rise
But even then the brightest stars can shine.
All that people say is "Hard times make you tougher"
But listen, the Lord defends those who suffer.
Little do they know He will pull you out of the rubble
And they forgot to mention He defends you in times of trouble.
But don't worry, I will tell you the great things of Him
He always provides a light, even when it seems dim.
He does not forget your cries, and He listens when you pray
Even the sun needs help reaching the skies
It is for you alone He has made this day.
You are precious to Him, He honors you and loves you
He has written your name on His hand, and it's something he will never undo.