Faith > Doubt

Lately I've been struggling with my faith. I don't know what to pray anymore because it feels like my words just bounce off the walls. I don't feel "on fire" like I usually do, and it's probably the worst feeling ever. I feel empty.

I recently began reading Romans, which is probably one of my favorites books now and I'm not even half way done with it! Everything that I have read so far is perfect for the way I'm feeling. It's filling the hole in me and I can't get enough of it. In the first couple of chapters it talks mainly about either doing good or doing evil. Over and over again it says God will be good to those who do good for Him. I read that and I just feel completely refreshed and reassured. God never breaks His promises so why not go all out for this guy? He's the man (literally)! Romans also covers the subject of judging quite a bit. And I'll be honest, I feel pretty guilty because the Bible clearly says to not judge because we are no better than the one we are judging, yet I do it so much! The only good thing coming out of this is that I have been catching myself and others on the whole judging thing. I either stop myself or tell someone that we are all God's children, but they usually just laugh when I say it. But I'm not ashamed (also in Romans, 1:16). Whoa, I didn't even mean to do that! The book of Romans is consuming me!! Anyways, I got a little excited there, sorry. One of my all time favorite verses at the moment (it changes about every week) is Romans 5:10 which says: "While we were God's enemies, he made friends with us through the death of his Son. Surely, now that we are his friends, he will save us through his Son's life." What that means to me is this: Even when we weren't God's friends, and we lived in sin and did everything evil, he wanted us to be friends so bad that he sent his own flesh down to suffer so things could be made right with Him. And if that's not love than I don't know what is! I could go on and on about everything I love about Romans, but the longer this post looks, the more people won't want to read it. And I know this, because I'm one of those people. But the whole point of this post was to share how much my faith was made new from reading Romans and I would encourage all of you reading this blog who have not read it yet, to take the time and really dig in to it. It.is.awesome.