Honesty

This past week You have really humbled me. You have opened my eyes so much. One realization that You brought me to was to fix my prayers. When I prayed to You, I made myself seem perfect. I wasn't honest with You. Which was dumb because You know everything about me. I didn't put it all on the table before You. Over and over I have read the verses that talk about presenting all my problems to You. Yet, for some reason I avoided doing that. I wasn't really doing it on purpose, I just never thought You would take care of all my problems. I came across this in the book Crazy Love (Francis Chan speaking): "Often, when I pray, I will phrase my sentences in a way that makes me sound better. I will try to soften my sins, or touch up my true feelings before laying them before God...God wants us to be open with Him." Wow. That's just like me, God. Forgive me! You didn't deserve my dishonesty! But now, I am being completely honest with You, even if I tell you that I don't feel close to You as I should. Also, I have began most of my prayers lately with something like this: "God, I am weak. I am nothing. You are my everything. Everything I am comes from You. Without You, I am nothing. You are my strength. I can do nothing on my own." Saying this over and over really shows me how vulnerable I am without You. It humbles me. You humble me. Please continue to humble me. I want to praise You, not myself. You do all things through me. I have accomplished nothing on my own. Don't let me forget that.

I love you.